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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 12:08pm on 25/10/2025 under , ,

Last year I participated in an “Ominous October” writing challenge, to write a ~5k story around a theme a week of October. I only got the first two weeks done (because I had other creative projects going on), but I enjoyed it. Here’s my story for the theme “Undead / Strange Town.”


A black and white illustration of a low stage, with a tinsel curtain backdrop. A simple triangle bunting is hung across the top of the curtain. The curtain itself has peculiar reflections on it that almost indicate beings.

Everything was better once the mill burned down, of course. For whatever one’s idea of better was, anyway. But the point was, when that final abandoned shell was alight, the flames reflecting on the surprisingly calm faces of the residents gathered around the unexpected autumnal bonfire, it felt like the last page of a book turned, cover snapped close with finality. Without a mill, they weren’t a mill town any more, were they? The path was wide open for a New Town Identity, something they’d been attempting for a decade with the grim determination of an ex-quarterback who’d switched college majors three times over six years and found himself at forty with two marriages behind him. Because really, what was a town without a gimmick?

Up the highway, quite a bit up, was a Dairy Town. Now there’s a great thing for a town to be. You’ve got cheese, ice cream, every shop on the three-block main street dressed up quaint effigies of holsteins for Halloween in thematic outfits, while scattered through the town itself were bronze bulls of a different sort, the kind painted by local artisans to add photo-op colour to historic points of interest. They had a great online presence and a nice bit of tourism from the folks travelling through who realised that they might as well stop to water and walk around in a place that also gave out free cheese samples.

Down the highway, that was a College Town. The place that used to be a mill town was bracketed by College Towns, actually, but it did just go to prove that whatever your Town Identity was, it didn’t have to be unique. As it was, each of those college towns was its own sort of college town. You had the hippies and farmers and people who were determined to talk to dolphins at one, and the kids who liked to play with their chemistry sets a bit too much, or who somehow found running fulfilling at the other. So the place that used to be the mill town really had their pick of possibilities. And with the mill gone, so conveniently, they could now freely choose what to become.

The problem was, of course, that even with the mill gone the place was still full of ghosts. Most anywhere is, to be honest, but in a town that had been focused on an industry quite well known for its rather intense selection of tools, not to mention the way the land to grow all those trees had been got in the first place, the ghosts were pretty thick on the ground. Or air. Ether. One couldn’t walk the charming main street (four blocks long, due to how the highway split the town, thank you very much) without slogging through the miasma of lives long past. It added a rather negative vibe to the annual harvest festival—which was in summer, and full of summer fruits and vegetables, none of that dark winter-welcoming nonsense, thank you. It’s hard enough to stuff oneself on strawberry shortcake and zucchini noodles in the blare of wet June sun as it is, but doing it under the soul-weighing stare of several unnamed spectres can turn the stomach.

Which, of course, is not particularly great for the tourism.

After the mill burned down and the town felt it could steadily start down the path of claiming a new identity, the first tack they attempted was “recreation.” There were trees! And paths! And something like a pond and river that hadn’t flooded its banks in decades at this point—only the old-timers really remembered the smug satisfaction of the torn-away floating docks and pleasure boats, the only reminder of frivolously spent money a waterline smudged evenly well above head-height on every half-million-dollar manse that had been built too close to the riverbank. So, there was plenty of nature to recreate in. Especially after the town itself re-created a goodly bit of it, which included a makeover of one of the more rural parks that had all the subtlety of a desperate trophy wife remortgaging her youth under the knife.

The benefit of recreation, the former mill town figured, was that one didn’t need to have the town explicitly as the goal, the end-point of whatever RV-charioted quest a person was going on. Straddling the highway as it was, something that had been to its benefit in the old log-hauling days but now served only to make it a righteous pain to get from one side of the town to the other, it made for a nice little stop on the way. Why not stop for an extra night under the now thinned-out shade of trees that had outlived the logging? While you’re here sample the local cuisine, which was not much to speak of yet but a stack of small business grants sat tidy on the desk of the Chamber of Commerce, ready to serve.

If you’re just pausing on the way, not making the town your destination, then the ghosts aren’t quite as noticeable. They haven’t time to sink in, catch in your hair like the bitter liquor smell of campfire smoke. Right as one is about to get the jeebies, if not the heebies, about the undeniable presence of the unsettled dead, it’s time to roll the awning up, dump the black tank, secure the loose items on bungee-corded shelves, and hop back onto the highway that so conveniently rolls right past your temporary turn-off. You won’t remember the ghosts, some miles down the road. You won’t remember much of the town itself either, which is fine. The money you left behind doesn’t need anybody remembering, as long as the checks clear.

If you live in the town, there is no denying the ghosts, is the thing. They remain quite undeniable.

The place that used to be a mill town did try its best to deny them, focused as they were on re-sculpting their selves into a semblance of a Nice Town To Stop In For A Night. There were towns that were Ghost Towns, the kind that have a nicely sized, rosy-cheeked population happy to strut around in cowboy couture for the tourist, play-acting an era that more or less existed before a boom went bust. And, of course, there were the actual ghost towns, the ones that really are quite empty, buildings shuttered, windows soaped, the mail delivered begrudgingly to the single municipal building housing an employee only because the retirement age keeps rising. Having come a bit too close to the actuality of a ghost town between the mill closing down and its convenient collapse into ash thirty years later, the whole concept was just too close for comfort for the Chamber of Commerce.

The populace of the town wasn’t quite as strident in their denial, being as they were rather more preoccupied with the day-to-day and less so with Five Year Plans and Tourism Initiatives. You couldn’t harvest a grass field without the combine cutting down a score of wafting, wandering spirits, though the process seemed to affect them as much as if one took a pair of scissors to a blob of mercury. They’d coalesce, seemingly no worse for the wear, whatever sticky gobbets of soul-stuff that had been caught up in blades lazing its way back to reform with the rest that had scattered among the seeds. The filberts weren’t free of ghosts either, they’d fall from the trees right along with the nuts as the shakers throttled the sturdy trunks. Others would get swept up and sifted out with the leaf litter. Very few ever made it as far as the nutcrackers, thanks to the local orchards modifying their sorting machines to strain out spirits.

It was disconcerting for the harvesters, but as a town that relied less on seasonal workers and more on a centuries-stratified system of social caste, it was a discomfort easily overridden through practise. Nobody in the far-flung states that planted grass seed to staunch erosion (often caused by logging, in a lovely sort of karmic loop) found foreign phantoms popping up with the shoots, nor did any ghosts gum up distant candy machines, or get enrobed in chocolate on their way to joining a discount Valentine assortment. As none of it seemed to affect any of the harvests themselves, the whole thing was easy enough to shrug off. It was like sparrows in seed barns, you did what you could to keep them out and dealt with what ones got in.

The ghosts were so undeniable that people causally built their life around them like a squeaky stair, but like the self-same stair, they were so ingrained into the daily life that what a stranger would do when confronted with this invisible issue never occurred to them. The Chamber could deny the ghosts, the recreators in their rented RVs could forget, but any outsider spending a sizeable chunk of time in the town would step right on the stair, sending it squealing. Maybe it’s apocryphal but the concept of the stranger stepping into the saloon, their dusty boots sounding a creak on the dry and tired floorboards that causes everyone to turn in worry—that’s because squeaky stairs and creaking boards were purposefully built-in. How better to know an outsider than having the house itself tattle on the trespasser?

It makes one wonder about the kinds of house rennos that silence all squeaks, shore up and square up all sloping walls that were set in place by a handful of folks piecing together a home from a Sears catalogue in an outsized premonition of the future’s flat pack furniture. It gives all the energy of a thriller heroine trying to alert the daring protagonist that “it’s a trap!” her words muffled by duct tape that one hopes is from a special theatre company that doesn’t hurt when ripped free.

When the town decided to branch out beyond recreation and began courting the addition of a new employer in the hospital industry, things started to get strange. Living in the town, staying within it for a couple of seasons, exposed outsiders not only to the breadth of the ghosts but the spaces the local population made around the ghosts as a matter of habit. Which wasn’t quite the fit one would hope for when trying to incite a college board to build a lovely brick satellite campus on the outskirts, next to the town hospital.

Why such a small town would even have a hospital is a surprise, actually. Other towns of comparative size relied on the helicopter closeness of nearby cities. It wasn’t as if the closest town was that far by highway (which, remember, split the town neatly in two and was quite easy to access). Once one is rural enough, thirty minutes is nothing, that’s about the standard just to get overpriced milk from a shop that doesn’t specialise in smokes and lotto. But thirty minutes, when you’ve got people working with saws and threshers and all the sharp implements that chew up nature and spit out building blocks, that’s enough time for things to go rather wrong. So, of course the town had a hospital. And a rather decent one as well! Decent enough it made sense for a medical college to break ground on a new campus, what a lovely thing, a win for all. The college could claim the prestige of expanding, the town could add a rotating drip of residents with a bit more money to spend, and the students and staff itself could practise medicine then spend their precious off-hours in the second growth forest so carefully tailored for recreation. A particularly nice option for those who weren’t quite cut out for the city. Except, again, for the ghosts.

Doctors aren’t baseball players, they haven’t room in their lives for casual superstition. Particularly superstition that seemed to have little predictable pattern, as one did need to breathe the full year of the seasons to start to see the shape of it. Only dipping into the freshly painted bars rebranded as pubs and added overly complicated burgers on weekends, they’d be confused by things like like open pockets in an otherwise thick weekend crowd, jukeboxes loaded with playlists nobody breathing had selected, or bar rags kept in briny buckets that rimmed the tables with like a margarita glass thanks to regular wipe-downs between customers (a favourite trick of all eateries in town for ensuring the only souls occupying a four-top had butts to warm the seat). If they bothered to ask, if a local bothered to answer, if the blossoming medical professional bothered to listen to the consonant-dropping drawl, the answer still wouldn’t have offered them a satisfactory explanation.

It wasn’t as if the town had taken the traditional path of creating a divide of tourists and townies. The presence of tourist season is a heady mix of end of the school year exam rush, harvest season but the harvest is other people’s dollars, an injection of new blood that stays long enough to observe like a migration of exotic butterflies, something that would be annoying to deal with on the daily but are fun enough for the short time they stay. These baby doctors, they were staying for months and months at a go. The caste stratification of the town, as previously mentioned, was as worn in as an old mattress that caved in at the centre—not comfortable, but familiar and difficult to get out of. What happened with this sparkling satellite campus was that it stacked a new class smack on top of the old.

It turned out that not only did this new class of people, with money to spend and little time for the near-monthly holiday parades of the (four block long!) main street, did not mesh well with the already extant populace, but they also did not mesh well with the ghosts. You’d think, working at the hospital as they did, that the whole lot would be familiar enough with ghosts, that they’d be used to running their rounds while wading through a spiritual swamp, thick and steamy with (un)life. They were, it turned out, rather not. And, as students who had invested quite a bit of money in being students and who had the horrifically packed schedules that higher learning deems the correct way to run people through the laundry press of education (because what better way to create a class of caring medical professionals than churning them through the kind of days that could be considered a type of psychological retrofitting designed to strip compassion and empathy for others until a body was honed to only survive and prescribe?), it really came down to one simple thing. They hadn’t any time for ghosts. They didn’t have the time, nor want to make the room in their schedules or lives, for the ghosts that haunted the streets and shops, parks and populace.

It had been so long since anyone had acted as though the ghosts weren’t even there that the town’s residents, both ethereal and physical, were quite taken by surprise. It took the first full semester after the ribbon cutting at the shiny new satellite school, with its fresh baby trees and under-grown local flower bushes barely visible against the clean white concrete and classic red brick, before anyone quite realised what was happening. The ghosts were agitated. Meanwhile, the Chamber of Commerce was satiated. The dual-pronged approach of Recreation and College Town put their piggy bank to a place where they could order new banners (at cost from the local sign shop) for the summer harvest festival. Actual twenty-footers, that could stretch nearly across the two lanes of main street, printed nice and bright. There were other nice things they threw into their shopping basket, most of which were signage-related, though they did also buy a new copier-printer. Fat and happy as a pig before slaughter, the Chamber waved away the inquiries that had begun trickling in from local businesspeople regarding the ghosts.

What ghosts, they said, despite their lives being as shaped around the spirits as anyone else in town. What problems with the new residents, they asked, concerned that the little thing about the quality of some of the outlying area’s well water had reached the delicate shell ears of the medically-inclined new members of town. Everyone had known the Chamber wouldn’t be a helpful place to turn but they’d all felt it was best to try the official channels first. Due diligence, after all, is sometimes worth the effort. Like a person calling to see what is wrong with their router box and being told to turn the device off and back on again, it was worth trying even though one knew the result would be the same as if they’d been asked to spin in a circle three times widdershins.

With their due diligence done, the town was now free to find their own solution. Not the whole town, of course, even at the cosy population of a cool dozen times one thousand they were too big to truly do a thing en masse. As it was, quite a lot of that census included the people who didn’t live in the town proper and had quite enough of their own problems going on. So, the folks who had the time and the gumption got themselves together, at one of those places that is sort of a meeting club, sort of a bar, the type of place with the tinsel backdrop on a stage that’s a bare eight inches higher than the rest of the floor. You see a lot of old man bands on that kind of stage, folks who don’t have it in them to be bar bands but do like to get together and sing rock standards. That kind of place. Always named after some sort of animal, or with an animal for a mascot, their signs a mishmash of letters making an unmemorizable acronym. They’re good places to meet, especially if you want to be sure no outsiders will wander in. Because who goes to places like that except for the club members and folks who’ve rented the space for an event?

And they schemed. Well, they got close to scheming. The first time the invested members of the town got together they didn’t even plan, they sort of just hashed out what was going on, comparing notes like students a week before exams. Well, you’ve got that answer but my notes say this, they can’t both be right? Comparing observations and just getting the lay of the land. The land lay as thus: they did quite like the infusion of money so expertly inserted into the town from the baby doctors, that was a fact. It wasn’t just the Chamber that had made a good time of it. They couldn’t treat this new, ghost-ignorant class like the unwanted beaux of a single mother in a children’s cable romantic comedy and scare them off. All that said, it didn’t feel right for the ghosts to be so ignored. Or more, it didn’t feel right for how the town felt about the ghosts to be ignored. A person not in it could say that the town itself ignored the ghosts and they’d be right but also quite wrong, as one doesn’t make that level of effort to work within the bounds of a thing that one is ignoring. It’s the squeaky floorboard situation again, a purposeful shape made around a thing that acknowledges its existence while also choosing not to interact with it.

The second time the group got together—something that was easier than expected, because it was a large enough crowd of folks that one would expect schedules to misalign like a bad bite—the second time they started to sketch a plan. It wasn’t a very good plan, because no first plan holds up in the light of day, withering to dust like a movie vampire staked through the heart by logic. But they kept getting together and planning and finally scheming and eventually, the shape of a Good Plan started to form. Much like the ghosts themselves, who seemed to have changed their schedules to include these get-togethers and were showing up in larger and larger numbers each time but seemed satisfied enough with being gently herded onto the stage and out of the way of everyone else, the shape wasn’t incredibly solid but it was there and undeniable.

The primary problem that every previous plan had was: even if they got this batch of burgeoning medical professionals to acknowledge that the town had ghosts and there were accepted ways to deal with them, the school year would end, or residencies would change and then there’d be a whole new crop of well-educated idiots who’d need to be trained all over again. Any solution had to have a perpetuality to it, something that could keep puffing along on its own momentum eventually. As the town had well-proved, once a system had enough momentum, it slotted into life like a good pair of glasses, something you could forget existed but couldn’t live without.

The town historian had died the previous year. Nobody had spotted his ghost among the floating masses, but also nobody was particularly sure what the process was, as some townsfolk you saw again and some you didn’t. But of all people to join the haunting host, the man who’d run the tiny town museum would be highly likely to find his way back. And, if folklore (not the town’s folklore, just the general sort of thing one picks up out of the air like a radio signal), was correct, unfinished business had a large part in tying a spirit to a place. The town historian had left behind an estimated thirty linear feet of unsorted archives, which was a very rough estimation because the file boxes were scattered around his modest one bedroom, with more piled on various empty flat surfaces across dining room, living room, bedroom and, unfortunately, bathroom.

Some celebratory town birthday was coming up, one of those round numbers that end in a zero or a five. The tiny historical museum had spent the last year putting the more upsetting old taxidermies into heavily mothballed storage, replacing them with photographable dioramas and those informative mini-games that are the keystone of any all-ages educational facility. Due to the historian’s death, they’d also found themselves having to process all those linear feet, a task that had been particularly onerous due to them having only just finished processing what they thought were all the backlogs of previous historians and donors. They’d asked him, the dead historian (when he wasn’t yet dead) if there was anything at his house maybe, it seemed like there were gaps maybe, in the boxes they were going through. The dead historian had waved a hand at them, neither confirming nor denying and mostly implying that he’d get to it. Which, of course, he did not because Death got to him first.

A long-planned part of the birthday extravaganza was that all the old buildings, the ones that had been around notable amounts of time, would be getting tidy little plaques about their historical value. The more interesting ones would also have informative displays installed, in some sort of hope that the town populace would absorb the museum’s enthusiasm about history through proximity to educational signage. A nicely-designed pamphlet was due to be sent to the printers with a list of all these buildings of note, the kind of thing made with medium-grade paper and astringent smelling ink that could be purchased for a little bit more than you’d like to spend from the counter at the museum. During the week-long celebration, photocopies of the relevant individual pages would be available at each of these historic locations, the kind of thing somebody picks up and folds to put in their pocket or purse before they forget about it entirely.

It had been, until the problem with the medical students, a bit of a battle as to whether the hospital was old enough to be counted among the historic buildings. Maybe, some had argued, in five years it and other buildings of borderline eminence could be inducted. After gatherings in the dimly lit meeting club—where the slowly growing crowd of ghosts on stage were generating enough glow that they lit up the tinsel backdrop as though it were sparkling seaweed in the ocean’s depths, sending disco droplets of light over the concerned faces of townsfolk—it was decided that the hospital was old enough. It was quite special, after all, for a town so relatively small to have such a large hospital. Especially a large enough hospital to attract something as important as a satellite medical campus.

With everything decided, the nicely-designed pamphlets had small adjustments made and were sent off to the printer. The sign shop owner, who would have been having a banner (ha, ha) year if it hadn’t been for the Chamber and Rotary Club’s constant discounts, pulled out substrates that nobody in town had ever ordered, due to their expense and possible lack of taste or dignity. They were, actually, a very good sign maker, despite the clip art logos from clients they found themselves working with. Parade plans were solidified and announcements about street closures were published in the weekly paper nobody ever read. The secretary of the hospital director had practised his signature over the years due to really being more of an administrative assistant (despite that title rarely being in use in the modern age as it encouraged higher pay and prevented coffee from being made), so securing last-minute permission for new instalments in the lobby and other key places around the campus was as quick as the click of a pen.

In the week leading up to the town’s big birthday bash, even the most aloof baby doctors couldn’t ignore the preparations. Signs warning of roads being closed and parking abbreviated for the parade popped up around all their favourite spots to lunch, flyers were stuck under the windscreen wipers of the kind of cars that didn’t have a dealer around for a hundred miles. All the hip little pubs had placards about the upcoming specials to tempt the palate, with enigmatic titles like “Miller’s Mighty Meal,” “Strawberry Summer Surprise” and “Log Cabin Lumpia.” Every old building around town bloomed with badges, hidden until the day of the event beneath little squares of white, as though the streets had suddenly filled with fourth-grade teachers who’d found a good deal on novelty ghost brooches and decided the uneasy undead were the safest celebratory accessories. 

The hospital itself seemed to be the central source of imminent revelations, the lobby now the proud owner of a large something that sat under a heavy painter’s drop, bracketed by empty easels that would presumably display information about whatever it was that sat beneath the sheet. The building itself not only had a yet-to-be-revealed badge at the front, but another at the back, right at eye height to the door most of the medical students used when passing between the fresh new campus and the place they practised their learning. There was even a plinth on the path between the buildings, newly installed with mud squeezing up through the grass around it, though it sat uncovered and empty.

The townsfolk were nervous, both the good kind one always is before a big event finally exhales and releases all the plans one has made into the air to come together as fate and planning have made it and the more uneasy kind when one has made a bet but is not certain of the odds. The ghosts, for their part, seemed mostly unaffected by all the preparations, though they did appear in such a volume they could barely be contained to the club stage during the last meeting of the conspirators.

When the day came, it came rather drizzly, which was standard for the season (or any season, really), but the kind that promised a solid 70% chance of sunshine once the morning got over itself. This was no bother to the residents, who were used to that sort of thing, and who appreciated the time to themselves to go about finishing their preparations. The building badges were revealed, the little museum unloaded a box of freshly printed pamphlets into the wooden rack at their information counter, every participating business pulled out the stack of Interesting History Flyers for their building, the restaurant openers swapped out the menu cards for happy hour specials for those themed to the event, and anyone involved in the parade hissed around on their walkies, getting floats in line.

The sun came out as the clock ticked over for the parade to begin, which also happened to be lunch hour for baby doctors, enjoying their pint on sidewalk patios while deciding whether or not the new specials were worth a go. They found themselves far more integrated into the populace than they tended to allow, as anyone who hadn’t claimed a space at the edges of the main road were crowded onto the sidewalk, though they did so in a way that left easy gaps for anyone in outdoor seating to see through. The soon-to-be medical professionals appreciated this. Although much of the town’s displays could be considered provincial, they were notably good at parades. First, announced in the semaphore of the colour guard, came the high school band, their brass honking in that way that makes one almost appreciate Sousa. They were followed by the nervous clopping of the equestrian team, who were doing an admirable job reassuring their steeds when the flutes hit a note flat. 

Then, after the swift machinations of people with brooms and dustpans clearing the road, some charming old cars with banners stuck on to celebrate various clubs, tossing candy to the packed crowds. The booming sirens of emergency vehicles on their day off could be heard echoing off the two-story facades of the side streets as they lined up to trundle down the four-block main street, surrounded by the swarms of worker bees in their ambulance blues and firehouse reds. Then, the high pony tails and sparkling suits of the high school dance team as a choreographed sea buoying a small float blasting something indecipherable while a separate drama played out on its tiny mobile stage—something that had the girls covered in winding sheets that contrasted strangely with on-the-beat hip pops. This was the harbinger of the business floats, which didn’t pass out anything more than penny candy and slightly off-cut coupons. They rolled along like a mobile Bayeux tapestry, telling a heroic version of the town’s birth and growth. The theme first spotted on the dance team’s float continued through the business floats, floating white spectres slipping around the smiling, waving, bastions of Business. Several of the baby doctors checked their phones that the date was, in fact, some time in late spring, and not anywhere close to a more appropriate autumn.

Everyone expected the children’s floats next, themed costumes and decorated bikes, determined parents pushing prams done up to look like combines, but in their place rolled an indefinable mass of somethings. There were heads and hollow eyes and a certain basement dampness, the lot of them weaving patterns like a jacquard loom as they made their way down the four-block main street. They were, in such a mass, heralded as they had been by the previous floats, undeniably ghosts. As with the horses, a group of people followed, spreading salt as they went in the same easy patterns they spread seed. Crunching the crystals behind them came the children, none of whom seemed to care a whit that close ahead lay the unmistakable and familiar spectres of death.

Of course, not all the baby doctors were lunching during parade time, as some had drawn the short straws when it came to rotation. For them, and for all the doctors who would come after, there was the new diorama in the hospital lobby, a tidy little miniature of the hospital itself, like a homunculus awaiting its own birth. As one walked around the display, different eras of the hospital revealed themselves, a time lapse controlled by one’s feet. It was a fascinating and charming jewel of a sculpture, created thanks to the singular talent of the bartender at the meeting club, who had turned skills gained through his passion for miniature trains to the cause. What was most notable, beside the realness of each brick and bush, were the semi-transparent figures floating millimetres above the tiny turf. A scrolling brass plate at the front of the diorama read “In celebration of our residents, living and dead” which was the kind of sentiment one was used to enough in hospital memorial sculpture, though it most notably came minus actual imagery of ghosts.

It was a classy and subtle bit of work, but the plinth along the path out back, where nobody but the medical students went, was not. Empty until the day, it was now the stage for a ghost, who seemed quite satisfied to simply stand there, staring at all who passed.

After the celebration week ended and the Birthday Bash specials had been mercifully retired, tinsel and banners removed from lamp poles, the ghost still stood on the plinth between the sparkling new Satellite Campus and the hospital. It perhaps wasn’t the same ghost, as none of the baby doctors quite had the eye to tell them apart yet. But there was always a ghost, no matter the time of day. And one couldn’t cut across the grass to take the long way, as the lawn that had been put in after the new construction hadn’t much of a root mat and a step off the path meant mud up to the ankle, if the weather had been wet enough.

In the end, the ghosts were undeniable. For everyone.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 11:45pm on 18/10/2025 under ,

This is my second year doing Yuletide and I am revisiting most of my tags from last year because I am the kind of person who orders the same thing every time at restaurants as well. I am fine with all POVs, tenses, unusual formats and ratings (in fact, I quite like when people play with form!). I tend to like short fic, but also I just like to read stories <3

My AO3 name is also bzedan, and I am always open to treats.

I love (and I don't even know how relevant these are to my requested fandoms, I'm just sharing vibes): found family, hurt-comfort, guard dog relationships, loyalty, praise-kink, epistolatory fiction or anything related (transcripts! snippets of archived materials!), queer characters, purple prose and excessive scene and food description, worldbuilding, goofy metaphors and similies, domestic cosiness, animals and nature, "one last job" or "we gotta save the barn!" situations, second chances, time loops, fingers in the mouth.

I'm totally fine with: canon-typical violence, gore, 'depressing' existential concepts, horror/creepiness, emotional loss, change-the-setting/time AUs.

General DNWs: pregnancy of any type or stage (one exception, which is noted in the relevant fandom), death of requested characters who don't die in canon, real-life current political figures, explicit non-con, beastiality, child/adult sex, fecal play.

Chronicles of Amicae - Mirah Bolender

My gift must feature one or more of my chosen character tags (giver's choice): Laura Kramer (Chronicles of Amicae), Clae Sinclair (Chronicles of Amicae), Okane Sinclair (Chronicles of Amicae), Worldbuilding (Chronicles of Amicae)

Canon-specific DNW: Current enslavement, but passing mention of past enslavement okay

Listen, I know this is a hard series to get hold of. I'll take any domestic moment or fight scene or worldbuilding about any of the characters. I'm a big ol' sucker for how the main three (Laura Kramer, Clae Sinclair, Okane Sinclair) interact and the family they've created, but I also love basically everyone else in the series. Heck, if you feel wild enough to delve into the Hive-Mind, I'd love to see it.

Additional notes: This series is getting more difficult to find on Libby/the library, here are links to the three books on Storygraph (which also has content warnings, and links to find):

City of Broken Magic
The Monstrous Citadel
Fortress of Magi

The Mechanic (2011)

My gift must feature one or more of my chosen character tags (giver's choice): Arthur Bishop, Steve McKenna

No canon-specific DNW

Love these boys, both alone and together. I'd be happy with anything from a grumpy morning over coffee to them pulling a wetworks job to an explicit scene of them fulfilling a different kind of (wet) job. The things that particularly endear me to them is the reluctance to aknowledge their mentor-protégé relationship that is almost knight/squire in depth.

I'm okay with Steve's death in canon (even though I'm also a fan of the alternate universe - canon divergence where he lives) and Arthur dealing with how he feels after that could be interesting!

Additional notes: Apparently it's on Kanopy currently! You can access Kanopy for free with a US library card or univeristy login, "rentals" are a ticket system, it's a great thing to have anyway, haha, support your library resources!
https://www.kanopy.com/en/lapl/video/14189845

Twisted Metal (TV 2023)

My gift must feature one or more of my chosen character tags (giver's choice): Mayhem (Twisted Metal TV 2023), Needles "Sweet Tooth" Kane (Twisted Metal TV 2023), Worldbuilding (Twisted Metal TV 2023)

Canon-specific DNW: Mayhem and Sweet Tooth are only ever an "and," never a "slash" for me.

I love, love, love Mayhem, what a type of gal, nothing but trouble, but also exactly what rounds out her family with John and Quiet. What else has she been up to? What scrapes has she been in or gotten in? Sweet Tooth is a murderous goofball, what a jumble his brain is , and he's all heart, somehow. Though maybe not just his own heart. I'd love to get inside either of their heads. But also: worldbuilding. The show really built a world, and a wild one, and one that begs to be played around in. There's a lot of possible theres, there.

Additional notes: Available on Peacock (subscription streaming service). Peacock does not have a playlist I think (rude) but has a decent number of clips on their YouTube (https://www.youtube.com/@peacock/search?query=twisted%20metal), which, combined with the fandom wiki (https://twistedmetal.fandom.com/wiki/Twisted_Metal_Wiki) you can probably get what you need.

 

Monarch: Legacy of Monsters (TV)

My gift must feature all of my chosen character tags; or it may use exceptions I explain in the form: Keiko Miura, Leland "Lee" Shaw, William "Bill" J. Randa - my exception is if the story has only one or two of them actively/physically in the story, but the three of them are still romantically together.

Exception/Explanation for character tags: I would like everyone in the monster-hunting throuple to be at least acknowledged - I know that different ones are only "alive" or "present" at different times in this skein of a continuum.

 

No canon-specific DNW

DNW Exception: If any of the kaiju/monsters/titans is gravid and it is approached in a not overly-biologically descriptive way, like how a farm handles livestock being pregnant or how people are when their cat is going to have kittens. I know that the very first entry in the Monsterverse showed some pretty gratuitous egg-laying, but in context really no weirder than Attenborough nature docs.

Listen, I am here for the monster-hunting throuple. I love them, I love their dynamic, both in the field and at home. I think about how possibly maybe they could still all be together even after the events of season one (even if one of them got eaten by a Skullcrawler). I think about how they have each had to mourn the loss of the other two pieces of their heart at different times. I love them!

Additional notes: Available on Apple TV+ (subscription streaming service)

Thank you so much, and I hope you have fun, I know I will! <3
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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 12:01am on 18/10/2025 under , ,

Last year I participated in an “Ominous October” writing challenge, to write a ~5k story around a theme a week of October. I only got the first two weeks done (because I had other creative projects going on), but I enjoyed it. Here’s my story for the theme “Changeling / Curse.”


A black and white illustration of a partly-depleted tray of pastries, a retro style coffee airpot with a flower pattern, and a stack of paper coffee cups. They're shaded with screentone and set against a rectangle of black.

The scene was one that Mol was intimately familiar with thanks to numerous films and shows. A basement of a church or a rec centre, or whatever kind of public-enough place that had a side entrance to a big, rentable room. Sometimes the room had a bare concrete floor, sometimes the room had that sad speckled industrial carpet with pile of all of a quarter-inch, the barest layer of softness that did little to dampen sound or blunt a fall. There was always a table off to the side with a big ancient coffee urn, or a couple of those brown-paperboard containers like caffeinated box wine. There would be some sort of carb, doughnuts freshly picked up from the nearest 24-hour place hopefully and not sitting in a sad little kitchenette since noon. Or there could be those packets of black and white sandwich cookies slid out from their neat rows onto a platter, like what one saw at small town banks. There would be a circle of chairs, the folding kind. The walls would hold informational and motivational posters for whatever the space did during the day, their cherry candy colours washed green in the hum of the fluorescent banks.

Despite the entire space looking exactly as she’d pictured it, with any variances from her memory only heightening the familiarity, Mol stopped dead as she crossed the door, uncertain that she’d come to the right place. A body bumped her from behind, which was expected if one was going to freeze up in the centre of a doorway. Murmuring apologetic noises, Mol shuffled aside, crossing the threshold. An older lady—at least, older than Mol—patted her arm as she passed, in two gentle pats conveying a full sentence about how “we’ve all been there, dearie, no worries.”

Mol watched the woman beeline to the coffee (which was in a press pot decorated in delicate florals, another one in plaid waiting behind as backup), pour a cup and add an unsettling amount of powdered whitener. When she moved to the tray of pastries, Mol gathered herself and strode as confidentially to the table as she could muster, summoning all of her masks to remind her how a person should act in a situation like this. Pumping the top of the pot for her coffee, she watched the other woman pluck something filled with jam from the cut-glass platter. Like the airpots, the tray was a heavy looking thing that had probably been in service as long as Mol had been alive, objects pulled out for hundreds and hundreds of potlucks and meetings over the years. Leaving her coffee plain, Mol edged along the table to choose her own pastry and realised the woman was still there. 

Analysing the situation, she realised that the other woman had been taking her time at the table so that she could speak to Mol in a casual way. Well played, Mol thought, mentally shuffling through possibilities before going for the simplest. She smiled at the woman and asked what pastry she should pick.

The woman cocked her head like a bird, eyes flicking between Mol and the platter thoughtfully. “If you don’t like sweet, the cheese danish is actually quite good.” She nodded at Mol’s steaming cup of coffee. “But, if you drink it black so you can have a sweet, then the chocolate chip muffin is a classic that pairs well.” She hefted her cup, the liquid inside as light as an adobe wall, then jiggled the napkin-wrapped pastry with her other hand. “My choice is always cream and jam.”

Mol picked up the suggested muffin and smiled, though she didn’t bother engaging her eyes in the movement. To her surprise, the woman seemed to notice and laughed, her eyes crinkling.

“Well, I know it’s not cream, love. It’s a bit of a joke just for me I guess.” She sipped the coffee, her eyes twinkling. “I did look up what was in it once, and sometimes it is a milk-derived thing but,” she glanced at the tidy jar of packets, “not this brand.”

Realising she hadn’t moved her body since picking up the pastry, Mol made a small turn towards the expected circle of chairs. It was still a full ten minutes before the meeting was set to start and people that looked like regulars were gathered at various points along the basement walls, though two had already claimed chairs and were chatting with their heads close together. Shuffling through her mental cards again, Mol selected an action and tilted her head back to the other woman, using her chin to point at the waiting circle.

“This is the C.C.A. meeting?” A beat before adding an improvisation. “Or am I stealing snacks from the wrong group?” Mol decided not to smile, but kept her tone light.

“It is! And good of you to ask, because we have had folks wander in—though that was after they switched from Wednesdays to Thursdays and some poor souls from a monthly group spent a full half hour with us before realising how rather wrong they’d gotten it.” The woman looked at Mol, fully and openly but in a nice way, like how one looks at a cat or an interesting building. She felt assessed but not judged. With a decisive nod, the woman gave another smile. “You’ll do fine, love.” And with that she turned and strode off to a group gathered by a bookshelf, biting into her flaky pastry and shedding bits of it in her wake.

Mol found an empty spot along the wall and sipped her too-hot coffee between nibbling on the edges of the muffin. She felt herself go into neutral, where her body could continue eating in a normal-person way while her brain idled along on its own. Over the rim of her paper cup she looked at the others in the room and wondered if she’d seen any before. It was a small enough city, and people coming to a C.C.A. meeting would probably have similar daily paths, it would be logical to have encountered some of them in the natural rhythms of life. She couldn’t decide if she wanted to find any faces familiar in that seen-you-at-the-grocery-at-9pm way, or if it would be better if everyone was a stranger.

Someone with a clipboard made their way to the circle of chairs with purposefulness, and Mol watched the various clusters of people begin moving toward them like drops of ferrous fluid pulled to a magnet. She topped up her coffee before following, knowing she’d want the cup to give her hands and mouth something to do while listening. The muffin, half-finished, shedding crumbs, she wrapped up in a napkin and slipped into her bag. The woman who had talked to her was sat between two of the people she’d gone to talk to, which was a relief, Mol wouldn’t need to wonder if she was expected to sit beside her. Finding an empty seat, Mol eased her way between the gap of two chairs and sat down, tucking her feet onto the crossbar, both hands on the coffee cup perched on her bag that she’d slung around to sit in her lap. 

Once everyone was settled, the person with the clipboard stood. They looked exactly like someone who held a clipboard while standing in a circle of chairs in a basement should, at least based on most media. A causal but collared shirt above pants that weren’t slacks or jeans, lightly tinted glasses, a few leather bracelets. Clearing their throat with a smile, they nodded in a way that encompassed the entire group.

“Welcome to Cursed and Changed Anonymous.  These weekly meetings are casual support and discussion sessions where we can freely talk about daily difficulties, share milestones, and generally have a place to chat with others familiar with similar situations.” Their eyes flickered around the circle, “I see we do have some new faces tonight, know that you don’t have to introduce yourself tonight, but that it can help—both because it can feel good to say a thing out loud and because you might find others here who have found themselves in your shoes.”

Mol had spent most of the bus ride to the meeting trying to decide if she’d introduce herself and hadn’t landed on a decision. She carefully uncrossed her feet from where she’d hooked them onto the chair, feeling the soles align flat with the ground. Even if she wasn’t expected to stand, if she took the plunge she wanted to feel grounded. Before she could pull a trigger on making a choice, someone a few people down the circle waved a hand and stood.

“Hi, um, I’m Benny.” Benny ran a hand through his short, messy hair in a practised motion that Mol envied. It carried exactly the right nervous weight. “I’m a late bloomer in the cursed department, I guess. I had a girlfriend who was into some weird stuff with books—” at this, one or two people along the circle let out knowing sighs. Benny half-stretched his hand out to them, in a gesture of recognition. “Yeah well, you can guess then, um, the short of it is that we are no longer dating but I am definitely carrying a curse for two, ha.” He looked as if he were going to say something more, but the shadow of a hand appeared at his throat and his mouth closed with a reflexive snap, teeth clicking together before he sat abruptly.

The person with the clipboard’s eyes flicked to Mol, slipping off quickly and exerting no pressure. It was fully up to her if she wanted to share with the group. She mentally gave herself a little shove, enough to tip the balance. Because she’d prepared her body it was easy to stand, hands still clutching—not gripping—the paper coffee cup.

Mol realised the woman who had talked to her at the refreshments table was just inside her peripheral vision along the curve of the chairs. Putting on a familiar posture of “telling a story” Mol looked around the circle with a smile balanced somewhere between shy and welcoming. She let the words she’d practised on the bus ride slide easily from her lips.

“Hello, I’m Mol and I think I probably fall right between cursed and changed. I’m getting a little tired of straddling the line and thought this might be a good place to find support.” She was careful to aim her words and gaze at nobody in particular, so it felt like an even distribution of attention. Even so, she remained aware of both the person with the clipboard and the woman from the refreshments table.

She let her gaze drop to the floor. “In the evening I get whisked away to, I guess, fairy land. Only the time discrepancy is inverted from standard so I live there for anywhere from days to months, mostly. Then I wake up back here, and its the next day.” Mol felt, more than saw, a movement among the circle. She looked up, used a small smile. “Yes, like that Star Trek episode,”

Mol dropped the smile. “But actually. Not every night, but most nights. Since it truly is happening, I have brought things back with me.” Another movement along the circle, in her peripheral. “I’m about 35, days counted here. When I count all of them, I’m about 120.” It was off-script, but she added “I’m tired.”

She sat back down, perching her feet onto the crossbar, both hands on the coffee cup resting on her bag. Mol couldn’t decide if she felt better. It wasn’t as if she hadn’t said it out loud before, but she’d hoped that telling other people who’d also been touched by curses might feel different.

Nobody else had newcomer introductions—or if they did then Mol had brought the vibe down with hers—so the person with the clipboard moved them along the agenda.

“Does anyone have any wins, losses, or observations from this week?” They nodded to a willowy man who raised his hand with a grin. “Yosh?”

Remaining seated, the man spread his hands wide and simply said, “I’m learning to control it.” Cheers broke out from several points in the circle. Nodding, he continued “It’s not—” at this he spit a pearl into his palm. “It’s not cured, obviously, but—” a ruby this time “—its better by far.” More cheers and someone clapped, while Yosh tucked the two gems away into the zip pocket of his pullover.

The rest of the meeting went like that, people sharing things that had went well or things that had gone badly, then hearing encouragement and support from the rest. Mol joined in where she felt it was appropriate, cheering along or hissing in frustration, though she kept her lips pressed tightly when advice was asked. There were more than enough folks chiming in with help and she felt a depth of ignorance about how to manage video conferencing when one always appeared as the viewer’s true desire.

A chime sounded from the pocket of the person with the clipboard and they raised both hands, the paper on the clipboard flapping as it was brought aloft. The group, which had been offering words of encouragement to a woman who was debating when to disclose her curse to a new partner, wound down their chatter.

“That’s it for the evening, folks.” They stood and nodded to the group. “We’ve got the room for another half hour, socialising and discussion can continue while we put things away.”

Mol slid out of her chair and made her way back to the refreshments table. After she threw her empty cup into the trash she gazed at the airpots of coffee and arranged possibilities. She picked one up, and began to gaze around the room in a purposeful way, sending out the signal that she was looking for the next step in helping put things away. She was unsurprised to find the woman she’d talked to before standing beside her.

“Is there a kitchenette?” Mol hefted the airpot, which felt empty.

“Sure is, love, follow me.” The woman picked up the other airpot, and wove her way through the milling group to what Mol had assumed was some sort of reading nook, separated from the main room by a cheery floral curtain on a tension rod. The woman twitched the curtain open, revealing a narrow counter with a shallow sink, and the oldest fridge Mol had seen, all cowering under sets of mismatched cupboards.

Mol hefted the airpot onto one of the few empty patches of counter. Most of the cracked yellow formica was taken up by a catering-sized coffee maker, flanked by bins of tea and coffee on each side as though it were some sort of beverage dignitary.

The woman popped open the lid of the airpot and dumped the last tablespoons of coffee down the drain. As she angled the pot nearly horizontal to get its mouth under the spigot, she said “Angie.”

“Mm?” Mol had been mentally inventorying the contents of a wooden bookshelf stocked with cans and bags rather than books.

“My name is Angie, I realised I didn’t introduce myself at all when we were chatting earlier. Mol, isn’t it?” She swirled the open airpot around before dumping the contents into the sink, stepping back to avoid the splash. “If you don’t mind my asking, when did it all start, your plane-hopping?”

She held out her hands and it took Mol a moment to realise Angie wanted the airpot she’d set down. Mol handed it over, buying time with a tilt of her head, as though she were considering.

“I don’t mean, how did you get cursed, you know, that’s personal, I just mean, how much of your life has been spent getting tossed around like a hot potato?”

Mol shrugged, “about fifteen years.” She had done the math, some years back. She’d spent 95 years of life on a different plane, which averaged out to something like six and a half years for every year her curse had been active. Feeling impulsive, she added “it’s not every night, there was one year where I was only taken one night, but I was there for about eight years in a go that time.”

“Well that sounds quite worse, honestly.” Angie gave the airpot one last shake and bustled past Mol, back to the refreshments table. Mol followed, assuming that was what she was supposed to do.

At the table, Angie spread out a napkin and placed the remaining pastries on it. “I hate when people cut things in half, look at this, two half doughnuts, who is going to want those things?” She nodded at Mol, “grab the tray, love?”

Mol did and Angie scooped up the coffee caddy and baskets of napkins and spoons, then the two of them navigated the thinning group back to the kitchenette.

“It’s not fair, actually,” Angie began as she set the caddy and baskets on top of the bookcase-pantry. “I’ve been asking you questions but not told you my situation.” She took the heavy cut-glass tray from Mol and put it into the sink, where it sat angled, only the bottom third fitting into the shallow basin. She turned the water on. “I have a similar situation, and I’d like to think I sensed it on you but it’s just how luck shakes out, doesn’t it, love?”

She swiped the tray with a sponge and moved the spigot back and forth to rinse it before simply pulling it out to rest across the sink, faintly dripping. “I’m a changeling, more or less, emphasis on the less. I’m the one that ended up in fairyland.”

“Oh.” Mol had no script for this, and thanked a too-long lifetime of experience that for keeping her face neutral with a trend toward sympathetic. She could feel the open door of the kitchenette nook behind her, heard the slowing chatter of people getting ready to lock up.

“Well, you know how time is there.” Angie looked away from the tray to stare at Mol. “I grew up, came of age, went travelling and thought I’d see what happened to my mirror-half.” Her voice was still cheery, but hollow.

Mol melted her face toward sympathy, softening the brow, the area under her eyes tightening with concern. “More time, or less?”

Angie broke eye contact, waving her hand dismissively. “Less.”

“Ah.”

“Well!” Angie made shooing motions at Mol, “better to come back a week after my fourth birthday than four hundred years in the future, I suppose.”

Mol let herself be herded out of the kitchenette. In the main room, the chairs had been folded and slotted into a rolling rack along one of the walls. Only crumbs remained of the leftover pastries Angie had set out.

Using the napkin to sweep straggler crumbs into the trash, Mol gave the other woman a small smile. “Looks like someone did want those half-doughnuts.”

“Hm,” Angie squinted. “My working theory is it was the picky bastard that cut them in half in the first place, coming to finish off what they’d mangled.”

Fishing her headphones out of her bag, Mol shook her head to both agree with both Angie’s theory and in memoriam of the halved pastries. She slipped them around her neck, their bright retro style underlined by a thick wire that plugged into her phone.

“Here then,” a slip of paper with a phone number scrawled on it waved in Mol’s peripheral. “No commitment,” Angie added with a smile as Mol took it. “Just know you can ring me up if you need.” Her eyes narrowed for a moment as she thought. “Or text!”

“Wonderful, thank you so much.” Mol smiled, let it engage her eyes. “And maybe see you next week?”

“Oh absolutely! A pleasure to meet you, doll!” Angie swanned out ahead of Mol, who folded the paper carefully and put it into the front zip pocket of her bag.

Taking one last glance around the room, Mol pulled the headphones on and brought up the transit app, queued to her return journey, before she stepped out the door.

The bus ride home, Mol played through the evening again, deciding what was worth remembering. Once comfortably home, inside the two-bedroom she could only afford because her patrons gave her gifts with great market rates, Mol put her things away. Everything had a place, less because Mol was a tidy person, but more because she was not by nature good at remembering small things and that was compounded by her curse. Knowing you’d put something in a logical place yesterday was no use if, by your memory, that yesterday was four months ago.

She set out what clothes she wanted for the next day, along with a printed to-do list she modified with a green pen. Mol had a folder of pre-printed daily lists, which she liked to think of as her “landing itineraries.” Even without a guide she could get through a weekday without too much disorientation, but it helped to know what she’d wanted to get at the grocery store the next day or that it was compost pickup that week.

Flipping through the folder, Mol found the page for two days from now and stuck the slip of paper with Angie’s number to it with a piece of sparkly washi tape before adding a contextual note. She flipped ahead to the next week and added the C.C.A. meeting to evening activities, writing “(maybe?)” below.

Mol finished a few more notes while the kettle boiled, then enjoyed a cup of lavender tea with a well-battered paperback before running through her evening routine and slipping into bed. As she did every night for the past fifteen years, Mol wondered if she’d be taken while she slept. For the first time in a long time, she hoped she was.

?

A week later, in the mundane world, Mol was back in the basement, waiting for the meeting to begin. She decided to forgo a pastry this time, having neglected to note the partial muffin in her bag and only unearthing it, quite squished, either three days or six months later, depending on one’s perspective. Mol felt an ease in her bones as she poured a cup of coffee from one of the old airpots. Doing anything a second time was always smoother, and she always processed situations better with a purpose in mind.

When Angie arrived, Mol put on a pleasant smile and raised her hand in a small wave. She had texted Angie the day after they’d met, as her itinerary reminded her to do. Mol preferred texting because she could always scroll up to see where a conversation had left off, no matter how many subjective days or weeks had passed. Luckily they hadn’t said much to each other beyond initial pleasantries, which was a relief.

Mol waited by the refreshment table while Angie mixed her concoction of coffee and whitener and stared thoughtfully at the plate of pastries before picking the same kind of jam-filled she’d taken the previous week.

“I’m glad to see you again,” Mol said, sipping her still-too-hot cup.

“So am I,” Angie smiled. Her eyes crinkled in concern as she added “how has your week been, love?”

Mol had anticipated the question and gave a half-shrug as a reply, receiving the expected pat on the arm in return.

Angie caught the eyes of somebody behind Mol and brightened. “I’ve got to go make the rounds. Excuse me, doll.”

“Oh, of course, I should probably grab a chair soon anyway.” Mol got one more pat on the arm before Angie slipped off to a group of people who could have been the same as the previous week. She hadn’t taken notes about who Angie was talking to before the meeting, though she had found that those kinds of details weren’t easily recalled and were rarely worth the effort.

Although people were still circulating, Mol made her way to the ring of chairs and sat down, once more tucking her feet onto the crossbar, both hands on the coffee cup perched on her bag. A couple more group sessions and she would have worn a groove in her memory for the C.C.A.. Mol wasn’t sure yet if that was what she wanted, but relaxed into the confidence of having been there before and knowing that she wouldn’t need to introduce herself this time around.

The person with the clipboard was possibly wearing the same clothes they had the previous week. Mol wondered if they had outfits they wore on specific days, or for specific occasions, or if their closet was simply like a cartoon character’s, filled with identical causal collared shirts in an inoffensive colour palette. Good for them, if so. While Mol pondered this, the chairs around her filled in.

There was only one new person this time around, with a story about a ring they couldn’t remove. Mol let her face show support and interest, eyes open and brow lightly creased.

After, as everyone shared moments from their week, Mol let their words filter through her, reacting at appropriate moments but forgetting the content once the next person began their anecdote. So far, the same as the last time.

Near the end of the meeting, during a pause, Angie cleared her throat. Mol leaned forward, pillowing her elbows on the bag in her lap. Angie’s eyes were bright but in a different way than they normally were, now shimmering with the impression of wetness.

She took a breath. “This will mean more if you know my situation, which some of you do,” there were murmurs of agreement in response. “But I have a meeting set up with my parent-sponsors next week and I plan to ask them about returning.”

Mol observed the group’s reactions in her peripheral vision, keeping her focus on Angie and her face supportive-neutral. The rest of the circle’s feelings seemed to run the spectrum, from enthusiasm to a wariness that bordered on anger, which Mol found interesting. She had been piecing together Angie’s situation from their single conversation and other observations, and this development could mean a lot of different things.

A few members voiced their support for whatever she decided to choose, and strength in meeting with the people who’d snatched her from this plane. Angie almost glowed under their attention, drawing their words in like ballast.

“If I’m not here next meeting you’ll know what their answer was.”

Mol wondered at a life that could be dropped so easily, even as she acknowledged that everyone had different brains and approached the world from a myriad of perspectives. She let the rest of the meeting wash past her and timed her steps to catch up to Angie at the refreshment table, where they each grabbed an airpot at the same time.

Angie offered Mol a smile. Once they were in the confessional booth of a kitchenette, Mol let the words come out quickly, and they sounded nervous, spontaneous.

“Can I get you coffee or something after? I know it’s kind of late, but I thought you might want a friendly ear?” She crooked the corner of her mouth up in a partial smile, hopeful.

From her body language, shoulders relaxing from an almost invisible tensing, it was what Angie wanted to hear. “You sweetheart. Yes, I’d love that actually.”

They finished the routine of cleaning up the table and Angie led Mol out the door and down the street to the kind of cafe that attracted late-night student study groups. Mol asked Angie to order for her from the giant, cramped menu, payment card in hand, ready to tap the moment Angie finished. While they waited for their orders Mol wondered how many days a person would need to try every drink listed in quirky font on the board behind the register. A month and a half, she thought, counting the columns and multiplying them by the number of items in one of the columns. Roughly, anyway.

Once they had their drinks, Angie led Mol out a back door that led to a charming garden patio strung with fairy lights. Mol perched on the wrought-iron chair and glanced around. The closest person was at the opposite corner of the garden, headphones on, their face lit by the glow of a laptop screen. She turned back to Angie.

“Want to talk about it?”

Angie sipped her coffee—something with carmel syrup from what Mol could smell—before answering. “You know, I wanted to go back almost as soon as I got here.” She waved her hand. “Not just because of the time thing, seeing a replica of yourself at four and realising that if you stuck around you’d get the horrible privilege of watching a changeling raised in your place in real-time.

“I was just homesick. I’d built up the idea of normality in my mind and worshiped it, almost. It didn’t matter how comparatively kind my parent-sponsors were, or that I had a lover who liked me for more than just the novelty of my humanity. I wanted a ‘human life’ and I wanted it so badly I burned every bridge to get back to what I thought was home.”

“Oh no.” Mol hadn’t meant to say that out loud but decided it was a fine and normal reaction, so she focused her energy on toning down the amount of shock that showed on her face. She tried a drink of what Angie had ordered for her and immediately had to re-divert some of her energy to pretending to sip the chocolate-mango latte while not letting it pass her lips.

Angie patted her hand. “Oh no pretty much covers it, love.” She brightened momentarily. “How do you like the drink? Fun, isn’t it? It’s like a little flavour vacation.”

Mol nodded. “That is a great description.” Angie’s hand was still on her hand and Mol briefly calculated the next social steps of disengaging before she caught a particular tilt of Angie’s head.

“Burned bridges can be rebuilt though, if you have the right materials.” Her grip tightened on Mol, fingers beginning to bracelet her wrist. Mol kept her body very still, her other hand still firmly gripping the to-go cup of chocolate-mango latte.

Angie smiled, and Mol wondered if Angie was the kind of person who would eventually get pointed teeth after living in a different plane for long enough. Angie seemed to like aesthetics.

“You, my dear,” the grip tightened more, “are the perfect building materials. You know I learned about you from one of my tutors? Not because of your curse, but because you’d married into some royal family and your coming and going was of particular legal interest when it came to inheritance.”

“So, your plan is—ransom?” Mol held Angie’s eyes. “Some sort of influence-based leverage?” She leaned forward, which Angie didn’t seem to like paired with the unbroken eye contact. “Do you honestly think, after I’ve spent 95 years over there, even if it has been spread out over goodness knows how many centuries, that I’m little more than a token?”

Mol clenched the hand holding her still very-full drink, aiming it at Angie. Chocolate-mango latte erupted, sticky and fragrant, from chin to lap. Reflexively, Angie let go of Mol’s wrist as she fruitlessly swiped at the sixteen ounces of liquid soaking enthusiastically into her clothing.

Dropping the cup, Mol reached one hand into her coat pocket and set the other gently, but firmly, around Angie’s throat as she stood. From the corner of her eye, Mol checked that the person at the other end of the garden hadn’t moved more than desultorily tapping at the keys of their laptop.

“Let’s go home then, shall we, love?” Mol gripped the talisman in her coat pocket and they tipped, from nighttime cafe garden to a sunny verdant bower.

There were no convenient cafe chairs where they arrived, so when Mol let go of Angie’s throat the woman toppled backward, landing heavy on the soft moss-covered ground. The fall seemed to knock words out of her.

“But, you can’t control when you go!”

“Correction: I couldn’t.” Mol brought her hand out of her pocket and shrugged showily. “I don’t make a useful token of exchange, but as a daughter gone astray you rather did.” She considered putting on a mean smile, but decided the other woman wasn’t worth the effort of playacting.

Angie was sputtering, trying to speak, but Mol ignored her and looked up to the two figures waiting under a silvery willow. “There she is, as asked. A pleasure doing business with you.”

With everything checked off her to-do list, Mol stepped lightly from the bower, tapping the pocket that held her new talisman. With the freedom to come and go as she pleased, she felt no rush.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 11:01pm on 16/10/2025 under

We keep a family discord server, in which I may be related by blood to only one person but these folks are all family. It’s a very “yes and” place, because we stay silly. Think of dozens of group chats all woven together. Anyway, because we’re of An Age, almost everyone is also on other servers and forums and there can be cross-pollination of bullshittery. In this case, “How many alliterative variants of ‘sword and sorcery’ can we come up with?” Like, “Might and Magic” is already a known one. We got most of the way through the alphabet and I was like, “I have to preserve this list.” Because, like so many things nowadays, it’s just what we own (blogs etc) that are better archives. Anyway!! Credit goes to my beloved people, I think everyone pitched in here.

The key is format: [physical] and [arcane]. Shout out to Merriam Webster’s thesaurus.

  • Adventure and Arcana (alt: Archery and Abjuration)
  • Brawn and Bewitchery
  • Conflict and Conjuring (alt: Claymores and Centaurs)
  • Damage and Deviltry
  • Epees and Enchantments
  • Fisticuffs and Flimflammery
  • Grappling and Glamour
  • Hullabaloos and Hexes
  • Imbroglios and Illusions
  • Jousts and Jinxes
  • Knockouts and Kismet (alt: Knaves and Kisses, haha)
  • Luchadors and Liches
  • Might and Magic
  • Nunchaku and Necromancy
  • Oppugning and Omens
  • Punches and Potions (alt: Punches and Paradoxes, Pugilism and Prestidigitation)
  • Quests and Quagmires
  • Ruffians and Reanimators
  • Sword and Sorcery (the original, the glorious)
  • Taekwondo and Transmogrification (alt: Thrones and Thrashings)
  • Uppercuts and Uncanniness
  • Vendettas and Vivisection (alt: Vexations and Vortexes)
  • Weapons and Warlocking (alt: War and Witches, Warlords and Wyrms)
  • X-Rays and Xanadu (though, the Xanadu gun is an early black powder weapon, so one could play with that)
  • Y… well. Amazing how few useful for this words there are, but I did re-learn about yo-yos.
  • Zombies and Zephyrs

Those last three feel a bit specious but, overall, I think not too bad! What a team we all make. Also, apparently in the server this mind exercise first came up in, somebody tracked down an RPG called Bunnies & Burrows, which was inspired by the novel Watership Down. This was a fun game! Big recommend you give it a crack.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 11:29pm on 09/10/2025 under ,

Okay listen, I have way to many links open on my devices, and not because I am not dealing with and bookmarking and reading them but because I was like, “Ooooh, I want to share this.” So, let’s get going. Find all these link dumps on the tag “tab cleanout.”

Who drew the comics on the back of Topps baseball cards? from The Fan Files. It’s what it says it is, THAT link though is just a summary and links to the four posts of the actual guy (a Dr. Eric White) who is doing the research, which I repeat here: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, and Part 4.
status: shared

Founder of Dwarf Fortress and Caves of Qud publisher Kitfox Games says its procgen sims for sickos are ‘giving storytelling tools back to the people when games and passive media took them away’ over at PC Gamer. This is some interesting talk about procedurally generated story and what it can give us as players, this is the meat of it for me:

“These games force you to have to sit with what you’re seeing. Whether it’s because the graphics are lo-fi or Dwarf Fortress’ feed being very non-descriptive, it allows you to fill in those gaps in an interesting way,” Orlando said. “The heart and soul of it is sitting with your dwarves and figuring out how you see their personalities interact with each other and different situations. That’s where the player stories come from.”

status: moved to WIP/REF: Gamewriting

The Bearded Vulture as an accumulator of historical remains: Insights for future ecological and biocultural studies at ESA. The sum of it is: some bearded vulture nests are mega old and when scientists started poking into what they were made of, or what litter from previous meals of generations was there, they found amazing stuff. Like, the expected bone remains and hooves and whatnot (which is a cool way to see the history of other animals in the space) but items made by people from the local esparto grass, cloth, a crossbow bold, a shoe. It’s like a core sample of the history of people and creatures and the world that the nest has existed alongside for hundreds of years. From the study:

More interestingly, the abundant and well-preserved anthropogenic elements brought to the nests, such as the extraordinary historical manufactured items made of esparto grass: such as alpargatas (esparto sandals), ropes, basketry, horse tacks, and slingshots, have an ethnographic interest. These artifacts can gain significance when considered alongside nest altitude, which influences the availability of remains and the type of ecological zone represented.

status: shared

The Spooky House by SPOOKYSOFT on Itch. A very delightfully chunky-pixel looking game that links to a fun soundtrack to listen to while you try to escape said spooky house.
status: saved in Itch.io to my to play list

Word building over at Words and Things. A really easy to understand breakdown of how you can build words that feel right, even if you’re not building a whole fake language for your pretend world. It’s a short piece but one that gets the brain going on why some words in a genre piece work and why they don’t (and why some names scan and others feel like Scrabble tiles spilled out).
status: shared

So You Want to Write Iambic Pentameter at Azhdarchid. What it says on the tin. This is neat and I’m still trying to wrap my brain around it but I LOVE system-based approaches to writing and crafting so I am going to keep picking at it.
status: moved to WIP/REF: Ref & Writing

And now here are three stories that are perfectly suited to the season, and none of them are in your standard story format:

  • A Wayback Machine link to “Crampton”, a spec script for an episode of The X Files by Thomas Ligotti and Brandon Trenz from 1998. It’s good stuff.
  • ‘Scrow by Michael Lutz, a forum-formatted creepy story about scarecrow hobbyists.
  • Unwindr, also by Michael Lutz, a sequel of sorts. This story is done as reviews for a corn maze.

Whew, okay, my poor old phone can breathe again.

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What I think is particularly telling is that I only know about the Stranger Things “activation” at Target because I have to read a press release dump site for work. Even taking Target and every bad move they’ve made this year out of the equation, you’d think that there was somebody left who cared about Stranger Things. Or, at least nostalgic nerdy Jansports (which look like they’re light edits to their “Cool Student” pack, bless).

A product shot of a black classic leather-bottomed backpack, the Jansport logo label sewed on upside down.
Netflix, via Futon Critic

Like yeah, if I search around the web about it, then various places who dress up press releases have done their duty and that’s about it. No social buzz of note, which feels like someone placing Chekov’s gun on the table.

Taking a look at the numbers and the season 5 teaser got 23 million views, released some two months ago.That’s no mean feat. Fallout season 2’s trailer, which landed a month ago, only has 3.6m.

Folks clearly care about Stranger Things to some degree, and I’m sure that when the final season drops–one piece at a time (Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s Eve, dramatically)–they will get lots of numbers from folks with Netflix subscriptions. I mean, I also turn my light switch on all the time without really taking in that I’m doing it.

And that’s not to be dismissive of the show! It’s just that it’s an extremely easy show for a lot of folks to watch (maybe not content-wise, but access-wise). It’s not hard to be a fan of a heavily-pushed show when it drops on a streamer that to most folks is as basic a utility as their gas or power, but that isn’t really indicative of a thirsty fandom that can support 150 (!) new products.

Oh, did I not mention? This display, which looks like it’s the size of one of Target’s smaller holiday setups (think Easter candy, not Halloween), which will be taking up a notable footprint that might bite into the holiday displays (remember, s5 is spread across the whole of the Christmas holiday, pre and post), is to sell 150 new products.

A drawing of the planned campaign space, showing how several dedicated shelves with themed decorations will be laid out.
Netflix, via Futon Critic

This is a big commit, like, this is a year? or more of setting up and getting sign-offs and coordinating with other brands (the inevitable Funko, etc). The deal had to have been inked, um, before Target’s cultural and actual stock took a dump. Even with only half the products as Target exclusives, that’s a lot of work. Yet! This whole thing launches on October 5th and the press release just dropped. From experience, minimal promotional lead up indicates somebody isn’t feeling like a project is going to go well. But what do I know, I just watch trends and make judgements on them based on years of observation. Maybe this weekend, when all those people (lol) are shopping Target we’ll see some more chatter about it.

Though, when school shopping isn’t enough to inject some pep into your profit step then will a glut of products for a show that is ending do it? The whole deal probably made perfect sense a year ago. People watch Stranger Things from habit, they shop at Target from habit. They will wander into the stores, absently thinking about picking up yoghurt, enter The Daze that apparently people get into, and find themselves at checkout with a handful of products that made their brain ting, plus some bubble water, little cheeses and the yogurt they came in to pick up.

It’s a plan reliant on folks going with the flow. But that flow got fucked when Target was a fool. Fascinatingly, Netflix never seems to be hit with similar fluctuations no matter who calls for it, because people consider it a kind of utility and that makes it invisible, impenetrable. They also aren’t the ones who will suffer much if this brand hookup falls through and we are seeing Stranger Things products littering the shelves into spring. They’re not the ones who decided to dedicate a notable quantity of shelf space to it.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 12:37am on 26/09/2025 under ,

I don’t like emails in the natural, modern, traditional sense of having to answer them. But I do like emails in that I enjoy reading things and writing people and having stuff set aside on my phone (in the inbox) to read is handy when I need basically a reading snack. So, here are some cool newsletters I enjoy “cluttering” my inbox.

I do still follow (only via email, not on the app, yuck, lol) some Substack newsletters even though their practises suck (this is the same thing Patreon did for ages that they finally I think reversed, god) and they do things like cross-promoting full nazi garbage into random newsletters. I honestly never click through because I like the way stuff looks in my inbox and my email client is fine with long messages. Anyway!

From people: these are newsletters that often have some life wrapped in

The Hypothesis from Analee Newitz
Love their writing work so of course I love the newsletter! Often cool learning opportunities and neat link-outs.

Vanburen’s Fitness Tips from Ann Leckie
Another writer I adore with a nice monthly newsletter. I have found SO MANY good book recs from this one.

Ask A Sub (substack)
What it sounds like–sexy stuff and lifestyle stuff and kink and lots of big thoughts about relationships. Fun! 100% a perspective that is not mine (writer is a white lady of a higher income class than me) but that’s kind of fun because she is coming from a different place.

Of Stuff: these are newsletters that are neat collections of things

70’s Sci Fi Art
Truly one of my fave inbox treats, basically weekly. I’ve found good reading recs here too, and there are always cool links and thought branches around some very nice sci-fi illustrations.

Dearest
I think this newsletter is what got me into newsletters. Not any regular release but each one is JAM PACKED with links to more info and lots of nerdery cushioning pictures of pretty jewels, wild antiques and neat finds.

I have some other newsletters and serialised fiction over on my Links page, serialised fiction is a whole other thing and I’m still poking around to find more. I really like it but also I am very picky.

I should also be like, I have a newsletter that drops the first Monday of every month and it’s pretty cool actually.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 12:30am on 18/09/2025 under ,

Now, I’ve made some Fallout: New Vegas themed items before, because I’m super normal about the game. Big as my fannish love is, I have avoided making props because I live in a very small apartment and don’t need more clutter. That said, I had a realisation last playthrough that I could both have a game prop AND use up some crafting supplies in one go, so: the Sierra Madre Casino snow globe.

A video gif of a hand setting a snowglobe on a stack of beat up old books. The snowglobe is labelled "Sierra Madre Casino" and has a pip boy standing in a pile of coins in front of a hotel type building. Red glitter swirls around.
Ta-da!

A few years ago, Chase got me a cute kiddy craft kit to make snow globes. The theme was sparkly baked goods. I made one, it was delightful, then packed the pieces for the other two away because I don’t need three snow globes around that aren’t quite my style. Now, in FNV, you collect these from different locations, it’s a fun little bonus thing. I realised while playing that they’re close enough to the same shape as those in the craft kit and was very !!! about it.

A screencap from Fallout: New Vegas of the Sierra Madre Casino snow globe on a crate. It has a red backing and shows the pip boy standing in a pile of gold coins in front of the casino.
Honestly, I got the red background really close and I’m very proud of that.

The problem was, as with any craft I do: how do I do this while not buying anything and just using what I have to hand (which to be fair, is a lot of stuff). If I had one of those laser cutting machines then heck, this would be a simple build, I could knock out the figures inside from acrylic, do the letters, build the paths for it all from the asset itself. However, I am not so blessed.

You know what I did have though? Shrinky Dinks. I could blow up an image of the asset, trace it, paint it, shrink it, and it would look (close enough) to the screen-printed acrylic that a perfect facsimile would have. Thanks to poking around I found the “oh that’s obvious” solution to calculating the shrink size that my oven would give (thank you craftmehappy), you make a ruler and shrink that. I also very carefully outlined Pip Boy, then realised I forgot to flip him. THEN carefully outlined him again and realised I forgot to trace him sized up (because: shrinking) and then third time was the charm.

A close-cropped photo of a makeshift paint palette, frosted clear plastic painted with a building, and the outline of a Pip-Boy mascot standing in a pile of gold. Through the plastic is visible a black and white print out of a snow-globe of Sierra Madre Casino from Fallout: New Vegas.
BTW I gotta recommend the pre-roughed version of this stuff, lifesaver, lasts forever.

Which is why the proportions are not so perfect, on the letters specifically. I ah, my main enemies are precision cutting and lettering. But I think I did a very good job despite it all, cutting them from craft foam. Then! I glued them onto the base upside down and had to do it all over again. Very me-coded thing to do.

A photograph of a workspace cluttered with cutting tools of various specialities. Letters spelling "Sierra Madre Casino" cut from green craft foam are laid out on a scrap of cardboard.
This is from the second go of it.

In the end though, it was all worth it. I broke up the build over two weekends, it was my reward for meeting goals throughout the week. I sealed the backs of the Shrinky Dink pieces, found my red glitter, mixed actually a spot-on colour for the back, and got the whole thing together.

A photo of a snow globe on a stack of beat-up old books. The snow globe is labelled "Sierra Madre Casino" on the base and has a pip boy standing in a pile of coins in front of a big hotel. It looks a lot like the asset from Dead Money.
Also I have, of course, exactly the right vibe books around as props.

You can see from the side that the casino itself is a little warped but that I got everything this flat is a miracle as far as my history with Shrinky Dinks is concerned.

A photo of a snow globe on a stack of beat-up old books, viewed from the side so the metallic red back is visible, as is more of the red glitter. The snow globe is labelled "Sierra Madre Casino" on the base and has a pip boy standing in a pile of coins in front of a big hotel. It looks a lot like the asset from Dead Money.
It’s all under water, which warps things anyway, so!

And, just for you, a bonus view of the back, where I glued the letters on SO GOOD, just upside down.

A photo of a snow globe on a stack of beat-up old books. The "Sierra Madre Casino" letters on the base are upside down. The back of the snow globe is just a deep metallic red-brown.
Bless.

A very satisfying craft! This is my favourite of the DLC, so it felt like the perfect way to celebrate that. I still have the pieces for one more snow globe in the kit, but I’m in no rush to make another. I will wait for inspiration to hit me, though let’s be honest it will probably be Fallout: New Vegas themed as well. Such is life.

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I find a lot of my favourite new reads from recommendations in newsletters (hey, btw, I always have 2-3 book recs and at least one short story in every one of my newsletters!). If I like what someone is sending weekly or monthly, the odds are that their couple-line summary of a book they’ve read that they like will sell me on trying it.

In June, the 70’s Sci Fi Art newsletter mentioned James White’s Sector General series as part of the greater survey of space hospital illustrations. Curious about the description, “a hospital space station that promotes peace through interstellar emergency services” I opened up Libby and saw that my local library had the first omnibus, Beginning Operations, available.

The cover of Beginning Operations, showing a gorgeous painting of a ring-type spaceship with a red cross on it, a scrubby blue starfield behind.
Beginning Operations, James White. Tor Books, 2001.

Like any big ol’ omnibus, this had a loving long intro that set the stage and sold me on what I’d be reading. And boy, it was exactly sounding like my jam. The Sector General stories were written from 1957–1999, which is a WILD span of time. It’s all the fun of an adventure story, with problems to be solved and just the right guy (doctor) to do it, etc etc. Only instead of war (and I love my future tank war Hammers Slammers series, mind you) it’s medicine. And it’s about giving medicine and health to everyone, even if they are a creature of your nightmares, or super irritating as a person. Because even if someone sucks they deserve basic care!

The ongoing themes are that we can’t know everything, that we can’t expect people to act or think like we do, and that it’s part of the job of living in the world to meet folks where they’re at. It’s refreshing as hell! I grew up reading Alan Dean Foster books, Nor Crystal Tears being my first, and that’s fully from the perspective of basically a giant mantid. The big draw of the Humanx-Commonwealth books was that there was buyable biology behind things. They made enough sense with how animals and plants worked. And “people” could be a million different shapes and thought types.

But even then? The reptile species kind of sucks and is always mean, but not in a “your aunt is just like that” kind of way. I’m of an age where there was a lot of alternate rodent universe stuff–your Fievels and Great Mouse Detectives, etc–and in most of those the rats are Bad. There are Bad Species (shout out to NIMH for keeping it chill). Boring! I got so easily annoyed by seeing that sort of thing, and as an adult with Scientist Friends who study things like bugs I became even more tired of “this animal is cute so it is good and more interesting.”

In Sector General, however, literally who cares. This is a blob, they love playing pranks. This is, I guess a dragonfly? He’s so sweet and gentle and also an amazing liar. Armoured elephant thing? Nerd. Crab? A bitch but we love him. There’s a whole book about a species that basically exists to kill and fight and they’re given grace (and no I don’t mean the book where war does come to Sector General, but yeah the real monster is man, lol). It’s just very nice!

Meanwhile Conway's closest friend is the universally popular Dr. Prilicla, a fragile GLNO e-t who resembles a giant and beautiful dragonfly, carries diplomacy to the point of fibbing since its empathic talent makes it cringe from hostile emotion, and likes to weave its canteen spaghetti into an edible cable to be chomped while hovering in mid-air.
Snippet from the introduction to one of the omnibus.

Also, as a human of today, how gender is handled across species is kind of elegantly done, I think. If you’re talking about your own species, sure, use pronouns. For other species though? Unless you are specifically talking about situations or organs where it is relevant, then you use “it,” because gender isn’t relevant there and also asking people to keep track of everyone’s shit, in a world where folks could have six genders and also they live in steam bath chlorine environments so you only see them in protective gear is a big ask. I got so used to one doctor being “it” that when we got a book from that doctor’s POV, so the pronouns were used I kept getting jumpscared by “he/him” (note: all the humans in the non-human POVs are referred to with “it” so the whole thing is very even, tbh).

Prilicla wasn't sure that he liked being called a gentleman when he wasn't even an Earth-human, but he knew that the term was intended as a courtesy and that friend Braithwaite's feelings of concern for him were strong and sincere.
From Double Contact, James White. Tor Books, 1999.

That’s not to say it’s all a dream. There’s some weird, of the time standard, stuff about what women can and can’t do in the early books (1950s!) and it’s startling, like it always is. The focus on meat being the only “good” thing to eat and salads being gross and “for rabbits” is so of it’s time and place its like comedy. There is growth though, over the course of the stories the hot nurse becomes a head pathologist and by 1998 there’s a cross-species ace happily ever after so!

I have: so many books. I try not to buy books unless I know I will be returning to them, both for re-reads and reference. Unfortunately it looks like I’m going to have to hunt down four big fat omnibus to add to my shelves. They’re kind of hard to find in libraries, but if you are looking for what a friend called “old school good times” they’re a delight. And there’s a gentleness there that is kind of the right medicine.

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posted by [personal profile] bzedan at 11:00pm on 04/09/2025 under ,

I continue to have eyes bigger than my stomach when it comes to things to read and engage with so another tab cleanout it is.

Make Up A Guy, by Nora Reed. Also there’s a make up a fantasy guy. Literally just a fun silly little character generator.
status: moved to Absolutely random shit because I can’t find if I have a folder for fun generators

Sounds of North American Frogs, from Smithsonian Folk Ways Recordings. It’s what is says on the tin! I found the link via something nice that went into detail about it but I’m just charmed it exists. From the Bandcamp page: “This classic of both biological fieldwork and natural sound recordings, originally released by Folkways in 1958, presents 57 species of frogs and toads on 92 tracks, digitally remastered from the original master tapes. Compiled and narrated by renowned herpetologist Charles M. Bogert, these sounds were recorded in swamps, lakes, woods, creeks, and road-side ditches all over North America.”
status: added to wishlist on Bandcamp

Profanity Adventures at Monkeon. It’s an archive of what happens when you swear in various text adventures on the Spectrum 48k. A fun range of responses from restarting the game to gentle chiding.
status: added to upcoming newsletter links section

Bird divination text found at Hittite settlement over at The History Blog. Just a little info about a cuneiform tablet about interpreting the flights of birds. What is interesting is that it was maybe worn or hung as display and I like thinking about someone who carried a bird flight path cheat sheet around with them.
status: moved to Absolutely random shit

A look at how fan fiction is changing publishing and reading from NPR. A friend sent me this and the transcript wasn’t showing at the time so I set it aside to listen to later, then when I did look at it like two weeks later the transcript was there so I read it, hooray! I like this quote particularly: “What I would say to you, Scott, is, like, allow whimsy into your life, you know? Allow the idea of connecting with people over something niche and exciting.”
status: read

The Manuscript Cookbooks Survey. It’s a database of pre-1865handwritten cookbooks! How cool!!
status: moved to REF: Food & Cooking

And the following links are just a path I followed from a Bluesky post: “In 1994, Italian artist Marco Patrito released a 3D scifi visual novel called Sinkha on Windows 3.1.” There’s some mention of the “gameplay” (just pressing ‘next’ mostly) and some images. A threaded reply also links to the game’s own worldbuilding website. Poking around about it I learned Sinkha was reprinted in Heavy Metal Magazine (see the issue cover here). I’ve always been interested in Heavy Metal’s habit of reprints, even though Sinkha as a whole seemed cool but just too dense for me to care much about beyond skimming information. Luckily, jumping from that, I found some very thorough analysis and read-throughs of Episode 0 and Episode 1 over at Post Rendered. Neat stuff!

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